November 8, 2023
This week is a little crazy
with Sarah’s birthday happening in 2 days. :)
But I’ve been working on
putting some footage together
for the second to last song on the album
called “Stay Awake”
This is the first song I’ve ever written in front of
a rolling/recording camera the whole time lol!
It was a little nerve-wracking
knowing that everything was visually being filmed
But I got through it!
And the end result can be seen
in the video posted in either the
private Discord or FB group
for FUTURE SPHERE.
My favorite part of this song
is probably the 2nd verse…
In the heavy religious environment I grew up in,
it was frowned upon to play
or listen to really LOUD or wild music.
I used to get reprimanded for it.
Yeah that wasn’t fun.
But that’s where these 2nd verse lyrics come from:
“Leave all the lights on while you wait
Piss off the silence as you let the band play on
For all the times you never felt you had a say
Take back the moment
Take back the stolen,
Take back the heart and swing away”
Reflecting back on these feelings…
I guess Fenwick & the Futures has
really been my way of “taking that back”
Taking back those moments
of letting “the band play on”
as loud and as wild as I want.
In retrospect I realize now I could have still chosen
to do what I wanted with my life back then,
in more ways than just music,
I always had the free will to choose,
but I recognize now that I just allowed the fear
of disappointing others
stop me from showing
my true colors and feelings in a lot of ways.
Well not anymore! :)
I’m excited to get to officially recording this one!
/n8
“Fenwick & the Futures